Thursday, 2 January 2014

Journey continue as Mualaf....

Friday 03 Jan 2014 

6.04 am, I am awaken by Azan nearby mosque… Usually surrounding very silent during "Subuh" prayer however today I am accompanied by the rain and the sounds just so soothing while performing my prayers... as always..."I LOVE RAIN"…

6.15am and I am done with prayer...quickly walk to the window to peeps at the rain and was amazed with the beautiful raindrops… I do not want to missed this moment because I know this rain will stop very soon therefore quickly took my laptop - turn on
"Where Do My Baby Go-John Legend" and sit by the window while continue writing my journey which I have stop last ended with dinner and that night was truly memorable and fun…After the dinner we went home happily 

Next day morning was a beautiful sunny Sunday.. I am again awaken because I heard my name being mentioned many times…I walk out from the room saw my cousin & her husband are choosing few new names for me.. "Janna Firah" "Marissa Maryam" and many more....To be frank I was puzzled and not sure whether I am ready to change to a new name, my moment of fear suddenly arise and questioning on how my life would be and how society accept me as an individual and also my friend will react towards my decision... all that been running through my mine... 

"you guys must be thinking on why I am suddenly behave in such??"

Actually I want to take thing at one step so that I can have my own space to learn and treasure to fully accept with my own heart which not influence by anyone. I guess this is normal for everyone who accepted new change in their life… I am so lucky and blessed because my family were so supportive and agreed with my opinions.

Time passes so fast and it actually took me 1 year to finally confirmed that Islam is my way of living… Within that 1 year, AL-Jazeera non-stop playing mualaf revert stories, attended Islamic classes and alhamdulillah been given an opportunity travelling to Egypt & China for more exposure on how Islam being practice in different country. I was amaze and feel so blessed chosen this religion.

From very general point of view, people label Egypt as dirty, boring and country only with sand and some said nothing interesting also the peoples are rude… For me yes busy city, people drives crazy but perfect, talk very loud, many poor citizen however I actually felt opposite because I have the best hospitality, get to know best people, learning different culture, treasure their way of living and yes no doubt its sandy & rubbish in few areas however it was surprise to me not noticing the dirty side of the country.. For more I am blessed to have my niece and her housemates guiding me through my journey as Muslimah. She was 16 years old in year 2011, studying at Al-Azhar School. Alone surviving at such a big challenging country changed her as a grown up girl… I never experience living abroad and probably looking at them being independent making me so proud.

They teach me on how to pray, recite Al-Quran, sharing knowledge about Islamic history also storytelling of Prophets. Aside from this, they show me a lots of places mentioned in Prophet's stories to experience the truth and differences in Muslim living. Not to forget also visited many old mosques which still exist.. Most amazing experience whereby "Azhan" performed very loud and clear everywhere 5 times in a day and people stop all tasks and pray even by the road side..We greet people "Assalamualaikum" openly whenever we are.
"I tried that too praying by the road side and was an amazing experience - people don’t disturb or walk pass front you at all while you performing prayers - best of all they greet and hug each and other after completed their pray (means girls only with girls and vice versa) J… then after continue with own agenda "

2 weeks at Egypt teaches me to be even strong in emotional wise, know who I am, my path as a Muslim...It was an eye opener to look at life in a very different perspective. Importantly gained so much on Islamic... I am still continuing the culture at home and also at mosque.. 

"Insha'Allah when there is a will there is always a way"...

Ohhhhhh!!!!!… its already 7.30 am and I need to get ready to work and so much I want to continue about experience in China but time doesn't allow me to do so…

Last but not least, thank you so much for your support and spending time reading my blog stories… I promised Insha'Allah to write my China Trip experience soonest… Ahhhhhh…… 7.50 am now….. Rushhhh…… Rushhhh……!!!! 

Assalamualaikum…see you in my next blog……

Love,
Marissa Maryam Leong



Friday, 22 February 2013

My Journey as Mualaf....


People always writing nice blog and seriously I have been always having the thought of creating my own blog.. However, I just do know how to start… what to write and what can I do with blog!!!....Finally I have decided to write on my journey as Mualaf…

Well writing this is very much challenges for me… On top of my busy time at work as PA, back home will be very busy with nieces and never had time to continue writing.. I have started the word "Mualaf" and kept it for months until today I have decided that I need to complete the whole sharing story not by showing off and mainly to share how wonderful n blessed I am being a Mualaf..

I have grown up as Chinese girl in a very big family whom followed pretty much of Indian Culture ways of living due to my granny used to stayed at Highland Estate at Labis .. Although most of my uncles & aunts have reverted to Islam, I have never practise or learn Islamic from them.. Both my parents passed away when I'm young and I have become too independent and hardly depend on my family.. This obviously created a big gap between me and Islamic..

You guys must be thinking on why I have decide to revert to Islam??

Yes… It's all started when I first decided to stay with my Muslim cousin with the reasons of using the gym to lose weight….Well... to be frank that thought and the aim will never be success when I am staying with a cousin who owns a restaurant… slowly my aim diverted to a different direction which forms who I am now…

Staying with my cousin given me so much of inspiration about Islamic way of living… seeing my cousin brother pray 5 times a day and how they get together, read Quran, being close to family member was simply amazing… Frankly I have always have the thought that Muslim will be the last thing I will ever do in my life…and now I can surely telling you that I treasure every moment of my life being a Muslim…

Miracle happened On March 2011 and this is where my new chapter of life begin…

It is still fresh in my mind that this special moment happened during my niece's trip abck to Malaysia… It happened on Friday where all my family members out of sudden plan to gather at my cousin sister place then out for dinner… Unbelievable that many obstacles happened on day.. My cousin's brothers and aunt arrived late at my cousin's place until trip delayed and everyone have to "Solat" at home instead of at the restaurant… My niece invited me to "Solat" and without rejecting it I am actually agreed towards her request to try and for the first time I am learning on how to take "wuduk". Believe or not I actually cried while taking each and every drops of "wuduk" water… Out of no way just felt that it was so meaningful to me.. The feelings are just unexplainable.

Suddenly my cousin sister walked into the room and post me a question..!!! and conversation as below

Cousin Sister                      : "when are you reverting to Islam"…

My Niece                            : she just took wudek and we want to pray together..

My cousin                           : seriously…?? Alhamdulillah… so when are you going to lafaz

        "Syahadah"??

Me                                      : Surprisingly I told her that I am ready and let's start the
                                             pronouncement of "Syahadah"

 

It was so blessed to be surrounded with 10 family members and finally I have pronouncement my Syahadah…. we pray together, hug each and my cousin sister, aunts, uncle were very happy that finally I have reverted to Islam….

Only Allah knows how much I treasured the moment when I said my first "Syahadah".... Alhamdulillah…. everything happened in good hand and I am now MUAALAF..
 

After everything done… we head of for dinner at Amy Search Restaurant at Ampang…

 
(to be continue)